LIFE...

Wow.....It's been a while since i last wrote something in here.....and so many things have happened....mostly "bad things" i should say....but as certain as there is a God above me, all of those things have been turned into good. I have taken risks, and I have made many mistakes, yes I have even sinned, badly against my God...all true....but God, as He is, has delivered me from all bad things, and has given me new insight as to how i should live LIFE,.... i now know more than just bible-knowledge...or book-knowledge...I have hurt people, and I have been hurt!...again badly,....but...in the midst of all of this...I have learnt to appreciate my parents, my job, my God, my friends and yes, life itself.....

I certainly hope to turn out a better person. I think I am, i will....Thank you Father for all of this, for your inconditional love, for the people you have brought into my life, the new ones and the ones that are has always been here!!....thank you, thank you....

Here we go again

So...if i go back to my old post all of them have in common a promise. I promise, and i hope to get better....but few things ever change. I feel Im stuck in a good feeling, but in reality im going down...down, throwing myself in de pit.

But...int he midst of all this, something has changed....i dont know how to put my finger on it...yes, im deeper down, yes im farther away...and i resented...but somehow...im better off....im gaining new perspective on life, a feeling of how to live life....or better say what not to be missed...and im not talking about money or horse riding, which i absolutely adored, im talking about sharing time with people, valuing different things, treasuring and loving people, as well as taking risks!!

Yes...I need more than eve the hand of God in my life...i feel i cant get out this living hell....I own debts that i want to pay....and today that's my biggest issue...and need to get more active at work, and i want to control what i eat....also of course, have a true and meaningful relationship with the Father and with people!!

Please daddy help me!!

Im so, but so, so, so stupid!

COMMITMENT BEFORE OUR LEADERS

On this day, the 24th June 2011.- Im about to have a meeting w/ Martita and Walter in order to ask for their blessing and thier watching over these objectives that i want to achieve. These are my goals:

1. Estudio de la Palabra diariamente


2. Evangelizacion (nivel iglesia, nivel personal, oracion sobre la misma).


3. Cultos (atender ya sea los sabados o los domingos)


4. Control de lo que como.


5. Diligencia en el Trabajo


6. Pago de deudas.

Gracias Padre porque se que tu eres fiel y me ayudars. Me someto a mis lideres.

En el nombre precioso de Jesus

Amen!

The show must go on....till He says the lights are out...

Hello my cyber journal. It's been a while since i last wrote a few lines here...though i have planned to do so before.....

Im writing because today, after much consideration and especially after surfing the web, and browsing Hillsong's site i understood that God is giving me the change to make history! big time!We are here, and we can make a difference with excellence though technology which is something i have always wanted, and not only that he is willing to allow this happening with other people..

We can not live alone, we need others.....and He is giving me all this...

I certainly have been blessed enormously...and everyday is a new opportunity to walk the walk of light!

Let's never grow tired of doing things the right way...lets keep on going till He says it is time to go....meanwhile, i know, it might feel as if we are on a huge pit....but carry on...trusting He is in you and you can and will accomplish great things just for his Glory alone!!!

Love you Dad!!

LOVE YOUR ENEMIES

The more I read the Bible, the more I realize and, in a small portion, understand God's greatness. What's more, He wants me to be like Him. I feel honored.....

These last few days have been really hard for me. I've failed people and people have failed me, disappointed me, showed me and my family evil. To be completely honest....i was ready to respond with hate, anger, violence....My heart demanded not less...and so, many bible verses that before seemed so appropriate, and true became difficult to follow, such as the commandment to love your neighbor, that very same person whom is causing you evil, again Im talking TRUE LOVE, LOVE IN ACTION!!! because it may be easy to forgive a past action but to show him kindness afterwards...wow that hurts even more....

God is still helping me, and i long to please him, eventhough Im having difficulties....but one thing is certain......I BECOME A CHRISTIAN ALSO, WITH THE HELP OF PEOPLE AROUND ME. IT IS PEOPLE LIKE THESE THAT GIVE US A CHANCE TO PAY EVIL WITH LOVE, WITH NEED THEM TO FULFILL THIS MITZVOH.....it is the way i behave towards them that will shout out to heavens WHO I AM: A FOLLOWER OF JESUS OR A FOLLOWER OF THE DEVIL?

2011 YOU'RE FINALLY HERE!!

When starting a new journey i guess mix-feelings cross our hearts and souls. On one side, we feel powerless, insecure about what the future might hold and on the other side, we feel we can conquer the world. Everything and more is possible.

In my case, I must say I have started with my hopes up high, however it was me, my own faults and short-comings that have made me realized that Im not up for the job. I can not do it alone....every single day i fail, i will fail.....

There was this episode of Sainfield where one of the characters decided to try doing life just by going in the opposite direction, doing everything that he may not normally do. To his surprise it worked! The world became a better place for him. He escaped from himself, if we could only all do that.

Actually, the bible teaches us that in order to live, truly live through Yeshua, we must die to ourselves. It's going in the opposite direction. I know, it's a hard thing to do...I love myself way too much; not that i shouldn't...it's just that my love for me has blinded me from loving others....it's not true love.

Romans 8, our solution!!!

I pray daddy that you may give me the strengh to escape from me as well.....and find myself bound up, tie to you, and you alone!

How stupid i have been lately......

While I'm lying here in my bed, reading about God and the nes (miracles) he has performed for his people and above all the way he has performed them, i can not help thinking and comparing this stories with my life. I am, indeed so bless, even the small things in my life, the things that may seem wrong, bad or inappropriate...He turned them all, into something good. This seemingly stupid things in Him, lead me to righteousness, lead me to Him! Who else, but Him can perform such a miracle!!!

And so, after pondering this, I finally understand how silly have i been when it comes to "judging" others, or even help them in their ways.....I have yet to learn so, so much.....Why can i not trust that my Lord uses all things for good?? Why can i not operate from a totally loving, trusting heart??...

Im not saying we should not warm others of the dangers to come, or about the mistakes they are about to make....but we have to act with extreme wisdom...and ultimately, always trusting and having in mind, that He will turn everything into something good......

It is this knowledge that brings about peace....

Chanukah / Rededication

We're still celebrating Chanukah, and im thankful for the Jews that are celebrating such festivity. In a way, i feel the keep the balance in this world....

Today, i have lit 2 candles, we are not in the 2nd day, but it is what i have, and I too, wanna commemorate the greatness of God, and how much he appreciates, values, cherishes and preserves our desire to honor him in all with do!

I reckon, i should have a chanukah at least once a year. I love that idea, of rededicating to God, rededicating us to him, acknowledging that we have let the "things of this world" reached us, and contaminate us, taking us further, and further from God. We are the ones, who daily choose to be close or far from God, we are the ones that choose exile. Yep, of course we too want to be in the Holy city, we want it all, but it is not possible, we need to choose.

I pray Father, that you may grant me the wisdom and the strength to choose right...according to your word, to your heart.

I have failed you, a thousands times i've failed you, but today i want to change, turn around and make myself and almond tree to you, let my oil, my supply of oil last forever....and my light, in you, be as bright as possible, allowing and reaching out other candles...i wanna kindle the world!

Blendings....

Finally after i dont know how many days even months Im setting again in a cafe enjoying only the presence of my beloved Jesus.

Sadness probably brought us here today, and Im extremely happy that im next to my saviour to talk about the issues, the feelings that are going on in my heart. Im not alone. Maybe things are not the way i would like to....but Im next to someone that will cause my heart and my soul to be lifted up, always, always....i dont need to beg for love anymore, He is here, and his love, whether i believe or not, is more than enough!!!

Thank you Jesus cause you have found me....and still manage to find me every time i drift apart.

LIFE...

What if you could find out the exact day and time of your death? Would that make a difference? It most certainly would, in one way or another our daily choices would be significantly modified. In my case, i guess I would take more risks, try to live out more and more of God's word (to be honest sometimes i dont give my best), I would take the time to meet more people, those that have been created after God's imagine, I would take time to enjoy God's creation, I would also spend more time in the things I know and consider to be of value.

The truth is, we dont need to ask ourselves such a question, it is a fact that we will die, does it matter the day and the hour? HELLO!!??? We know, FOR SURE, we are going to die, so what are we waiting for?? Talking about proscatination.... Shouldn't we regard our lives as the most precious thing we have been granted? Why do we look down on it, on us? Why cant we live it to the fullest? Why have we let the worries and pleasures of this world deceive us?

I pray to God, that each and everyone of us may realize this fact every single day. I pray that we may enjoy life to its full measure. I'm sure we can do that, cause in Christ there is life, fulness of life.

Thank you so much Father for all the things that you have granted me, thank you for my family, my friends, the people i have met during all these years, my job, my house, the places I have had the chance to visit and the animals I have gotten the chance to love as well.

May i continue focusing 100% on the things that really matter, even if pain has to be endured, focus on the one thing that really matter: Jesus!

How paradoxical is it that to really live in this world we have to die to it?

I DARE YOU TO LIVE

CANT GET TIRED OF SAYING IT....

It's all about Him...because He was all about me. The end is near, for us all, not long ago we will see HIM again, and Im not so much ashame for my sins, cause wanted or not, believe it or not, he carried them all....but what i can do for Him, what I can offer him in return, my love, my faithfulness, my all....I wish i he could find me in surreness, in love, in worship, in song, wrap up my mind in Him, and my love towards Him....Because He was and He is for me....

I DONT WANT TO BUT IF I HAVE TO.....

Growing up hurts. Moreover, it is not just something that happens while you're a child, no, it's a lifelong experience.

Most of the times, we find ourselves fighting against what's in our way. We fight out of pure pleasure, not because we're content with the situation we find ourselves in but it's what we know. If we change, people may not even like us, they'll envy us for flying away....or maybe, maybe We'll inspire change in themselves as well....Why not?

Change hurts, takes times and a lot of determination....It hurts the most when you are an adult, after all we've lived twenty something years and we still find, daily, that we havent made it yet! How we wish to have it all figure it out....

Deep down inside we know there's more to life than what we have now in our hands....but...there's always a but....

I pray that today, you may dare to grow up, make the decision to step up and keep it, never let go of it throughout the day. Day and night place it in front of you...you know why?? Cause this is what life is about. ..in this process, the process of growing up is where you'll learn the most, experience the most incredible moments of your life, and have a full life......

Dont worry, God is leading you, listen to his voice behind you (Isaiah 30:21)

THE SIMPLICITY OF SUBMISSION. 18 May

I love to complicate things. It's not actually about the size of the problem, or whether I was the one that cause it or not; in the end I always end up weighed down by worry, and feeling depressed or all nervous about something that shouldn't take up much of my time or even waste my emotions.

I have come to realize (for my surprise) that I struggle with submission. Because, to be honest, if Jesus' yoke is nothing but a light burden, then I'm carrying a different kind of burden, focusing in "worldly" things and above all, in me.

Submission is let God, be God. Follow his instructions, such as love, give a soft answer, help the needed, pay evil with good, etc. Even if my heart is against all this, even if injustice is all around me, I just need to do what He says, eat my pride and wait on him. My job: my job is only to be light where there's darkness.

How can I achieve this?? By falling more and more in love with my Savior, listen to his word, and delight in Him....no by power, not by might but by my Spirit says the Lord...

The everyday life. 26 April

I pray that tonight might be a night i wait for the Lord. As i read Isaiah 40:31 I am reminded that if what I'm looking for is new strength, then i should wait on him, that if I think that I'm down, even that I hit rock bottom, then he promises me that I will mount up with wings like eagles.. He will take me to new heights, heights that I don't dare yet to dream of, and once I'm there, he says I'll run and get not tired...those who have already been on the top for years, wont know what hit them....and I'll walk in life and I wont be weary...on the contrary...I'll be enjoying the view...because, well because it will not be me....IT IS HIM, ALL HIM...AND IT ALL HAPPENS WHILE I 'M WAITING.....

THE APPLE OF HIS EYES..22nd April

How unaware are we of God's love toward us? If we only knew the immensity of it, I'm sure we would live a different kind of life. However, we focus on others things, following the enemy's trap. We care way too much about "the house" or about that trip that we have been longing to take for such a long time...and it is so stupid...because with God, we would have that and more.

Yesterday I twittered "I am happy", to be honest the source of that happiness wasn't because everything was sorted out in my family, or because that day I didn't have any inconveniences,what happened was that yesterday i realized that for the first time, maybe in years, not only did i tithe but i was able to give an important amount of money to charity. It surprised me and it made my day.

Seeking God's Kingdom brings the greatest joy one can expect. It intercepts God's heart in a way that we can not imagine and just makes us taste life in a real way. We were created after his image, we are designed to walk in righteousness...yet somehow, we always get lost.....and day, after day, we need to be reminded that He is the way, the truth and the life....that we need directions from Him. Let's stop making our own rules about life, let's choose Him....you know why? Because we are the apple of his eyes, and He will never forsake us, many wont understand our choices, the way we behave or act, or even the things we cherish, but our hearts are gonne be full, satisfied....

"Fear not, little flock; fot it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the Kingdom" Luke 12:32 (KJV)

LIght of the day...20th April

Many times have I pondered and thought about the privilege of living a "righteous" or holy life, however i believe that today a new insight came into my soul or spirit. A new revelation that indeed makes all the difference.

It all started as I learnt that for the Jews the meaning of a fruitful life is having a life full of righteous acts, a person becomes more like Jesus as he produces this kind of fruits = righteous deeds...and so it dawned on me, to be like him is to love, is to give to the poor, is to visit the needed, is to let your light shine on both good people and bad people. Of course i knew this, always, since the beginning...and yet it was never that clear....

How i wish to step into the next level, the level where i can say...I'm living this!

Having this on mind, it crystal clear that there is not better way of imitating Christ than giving it all for Him, for God. Yes, he did it for me, but he also did it for God....in going to the cross Jesus fulfilled the entire Torah: To love God with all you got and your brethren as yourself.

Help me God to delve into your deep waters, water of righteousness....

All this makes me think about my beginnings with God and how much i was willing to give up for him, yes, many thing have changed in my life, all of them proof of his love for me and the understanding of that love. However, as years have passed by, I haven't matured that much, the small things have started to get more difficult to transform...or have i settle for less??

I pray that is not me, but you in me...you through me...YOUR LOVE FREES ME TO LIVE A LIFE OF SURRENDER....

Against all hope, in hope I believe. 19th April

So today I've started...I started to fully set my heart in following God's way. Dont get me wrong, it does not mean that i wont slip away, or that out of the blue I'm Jesus...I know that the process of sanctification takes time...but I also do know, that it is doable...God promised it to me, to all of us. It is the reason He died for us...so we can live a holy life, because He, the One who has called us is Holy...it is not because i want to be better than others...but it is because i want to please my God.

Against all hope, in hope i believe. I have to...I can not call Him Lord, see him through the pages of my bible, hear his sweet voice and delight myself in His presence without longing and trying, in Him, to be more like Him...

Again, Jesus can become flesh throguh me.....I'm giving him green light.....